I CAN only imagine

This song and video is up there on my all time favorites. I love his love for his son. I often say, "If he can do that, I can do this." I love the value he finds in his son.



This song makes me reflect so much on heaven, our short earthly existence, our very purpose for being created, and then we all move forward ideally to our heavenly home. I cannot imagine what it will be like. I have had glimpses of extreme, heavenly happiness. We watched the puddle duck outside tonight waddling around in her little onesie that has a green shamrock on the behind. Perfection. I know heaven will be these moments. We were sent a video tribute of little Olivia McCoppin who passed away this week. Lillie was standing next to me and I was watching her watch the slideshow of pictures. One of the pictures, Olivia is reaching towards the camera. I watched Lillie reach back and smile. Why does this make me cry? Every time I thought of that moment with her, I cried. It was so pure, innocent, sweet, and other worldly. Her heart is beautiful. She is our child who sees beauty in everything. I was walking with her out of a store and she saw two birds. "Oh Mom look, two beautiful little birds." I've noticed she looks at things differently than my other children.



At times for me and probably most mothers, loving a child is painful. Watching them grow, the passing of time, the changing of their voices, realizing that something they did so routinely everyday changed and you didn't even notice it, the struggle to work on certain habits and then suddenly they are big.



I realized today after so many sweet moments that if God had not made life a struggle than we would never want heaven. If I existed in a constant state of happiness on this earth, I would cling too tightly to it and never want to let go. I already do. I hold on to moments way past the time I am sure God intended. I thought all day about Lillie's sweet gesture towards that video. I have to remind myself that I saw it for that moment and it is time to move forward. I need to be grateful for the things I notice and not hold onto my children's littleness and embrace what God has planned for us each and every day without mourning the passing of time.


I Can Only Imagine lyrics

I can only imagine
What it will be like
When I walk
By your side

I can only imagine
What my eyes will see
When your face
Is before me
I can only imagine

I can only imagine


Surrounded by Your glory, what will my heart feel
Will I dance for you Jesus or in honour of you be still
Will I stand in your presence or to my knees will I fall
Will I sing hallelujah, will I be able to speak at all
I can only imagine

I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When that day comes
When I find myself
Standing in the Son

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever
Forever worship You
I can only imagine

I can only imagine



I can only imagine

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you

I can only imagine



My favorite part of this song:

I can only imagine
When all I will do
Is forever, forever worship you

It will be beautiful to just forever be with our Creator in a state of pure joy. It makes me want to spend my time on this earth never losing the perspective of where we are meant to really be going. I want to embrace the moments each day, conquer the tasks that lie before me and then when my final breath comes be ready to embrace it with satisfaction that each day I lived the motto "Carpe Diem." Each day we are one step closer to being with HIM forever.