Tuesday, September 6, 2016

Hello.

I don't even remember how to upload pictures.  I don't even have the words to put together for a blog post.  I think I worked on that for about 30 minutes.  Geez.  Time clicks along as time always does and before you know it, over five months have passed since I've written anything.  Before I go back into random blogging, I thought I should gently ease my way back in by giving a brief snippet of each child and a few other random tidbits.

I am a little over 27 weeks with our newest babe.  The ultrasound was slightly nerve-racking to say the least, but everything is progressing right along with our sweet baby.  We didn't find out the gender and that just makes me so excited.  John and I truly love not knowing.  I love analyzing the heck out of every thing the ultrasound tech says, comparing previous pregnancies, cravings, and the what not.  We have a boy name we both just love, but still can't nail down a girl name. 
Lourdes is almost 19 months old now.  Oh my!  Where do we start with Miss Personality 2016.  Every inch of her is funny, talkative, and mature beyond her baby years.  She knows exactly her position in our family and uses that to her advantage.  She has six mothers who so willingly lay their life down for her.  It is getting ridiculous.  We were at the chiropractor last week and she was wailing away during her adjustment.  Her mothers were fretting and stroking her head and the moment she was done, they all grabbed her and consoled her through her trial.  She is talking so much and very clearly.  What a goon!
We continue to do blood work for her every six weeks to monitor her AFP levels for cancer.  Additionally, she has an abdominal ultrasound every three months to monitor for cancer also.  We are 18 months into this regimen and I'm still not use to it one bit.  I hate waiting for the phone call for her blood work.  I hate waiting for the phone call for her ultrasounds.  We have many years to go with these screenings and it can be quite nerve-racking wondering which scan isn't going to be good. The center for Beckwith-Wiedemann foundation sent a reminder to all parents of the necessity of the screenings stating the importance as children with this syndrome have a 600 % increased risk of getting cancer during their childhood.  600% !!! Most tumors will present in her abdominal region, but they have found many children to have brain tumors, blood cancer, and a certain cancer specific to the child's muscles.  Oh man!  I feel like I'm back to Pre-school in my spiritual life.  It takes a total reliance upon God to trust that He has a specific plan for each person and He knows what is best.
She is just so, so, so darling and loved.  It is often hard to watch her and wonder all that could be in her life.
Kapaun.  Our only child.  John and I both are just completely twitterpated with him.  He is as precious as good be.  He potty-trained so easily this summer I can hardly believe it.  We took him out of diapers and that was it.  He even stays dry at naps and nighttime.  He loves sports so much and practices dribbling whenever he has a spare moment in his busy schedule.  He still eats like you've never seen and will eat anything put in front of him. 
Each year, I always have a child that pulls at my heart more than the others.  This year it certainly is Damaris.  Her quiet and happy ways often lend itself to her reading and playing so well by herself that the days click along and I just have such a desire to sit with her while she pours over her books, but often I'm tending to the other wheels that squeak.   She is a content little gal and I have to make a concerted effort to be with her only because she has so many interests in her day. 
Clairvaux and Vianney have been working very hard all summer on their school work.  We didn't take the summer off so we could get ahead before the new baby arrives.  It will be nice to take a break around December, but I really do like the structure our school days provide.  The kids are so use to doing their work in the morning that I half think they enjoy the structure too.  Clairvaux certainly is a math whiz which makes teaching her very nice each day.  Vianney is so filled with stories each day I think her ears are going to pop off in her storytelling abilities.  No detail is left unnoted and her sweet, sweet heart is almost too much for my mother's heart some time.  When I think of Vianney, I always think of the word "soft."  She is such a gentle, little one.  So, so, sweet and kind. 
We do believe Lourdes believes that Zellie is her real mother.  Although, she loves each of her sisters very much, Lourdes certainly prefers "Dada" for comfort, errands, snack-getting, drink-fetcher, book reading.  Poor Dada is clamored at all day by Lourdes, but what amazes me is how Zellie is so sweet to her every day, every time, all day.  She loves Lourdes so much.  The Olympics about did our family in.  The dream-o-meter was off the charts and Zellie couldn't dream enough about being an Olympic gymnast.  She practices for hours trying to mimic what she saw. 
If I could wish one thing for every mother it would be that God would give them a Rose.  Rose is everything I hope to be as a mother.  Her ways are heavenly and instinctual.  My sister and I joke that we take notes while watching Rose handle children.  She is a natural.  She is such a wonderful daughter and friend always aware of anything anyone has done for her.  She is drawn towards goodness and beauty. She has been bitten by the baking bug and wants to bake all day.  She is amazing in the kitchen which is so wonderful to have such an efficient helper.
Although Lourdes favors Zellie a bit, Lillie certainly favors Lourdes over almost anything in the world.  She loves Lourdes so much that she will tear up talking about her. She takes her everyday to retrieve the mail and will wait until she is up from her nap because she knows how much Lourdes loves to go with her.  I have about a million photos of the two of them outside together.  She loves to push her in the swing and her little riding car. Lillie started Algebra this year and is doing quite well which I am so thankful.  Math can certainly be an emotional subject to teach so I am always grateful for when it goes smoothly.   Lillie certainly is a lover of life and has such a wide-array of interests that I am quite afraid the world cannot match the excitement Lillie has to experience it.
My first love.  Dominic will always have my heart no matter where he goes.  We are like peanut butter and jelly.  He has grown so much physically this year.  I can barely stand it and will certainly burst into tears if anyone mentions that he is a freshman.  I can say with complete honesty that he has been 100% joy to raise.  He is a wonderful son, brother, and friend.  He works so diligently on his school work and we just couldn't be more grateful for his leadership in our family.  God has touched his soul at a young age.  Out of all the many blessings God has given to our family, Dominic is one I thank him for over and over.  He really is a dream come true. 

I feel like anything I could write is just a cliche statement about time, life, motherhood, and the what not.  It is all going too fast for my liking.  I am so very grateful for all that God has given to us namely our children.  John and I are so aware of the preciousness of their lives and truly enjoy our time with them and each one as if they were are only one.

Also, a few have asked about my mother.  She is home and doing well cancer-wise.  She will have screenings every three months for a while so as we say, "Cancer keeps you on a very short leash."  You can't get too comfortable as the screenings come up so fast.  We try to just be grateful for our time together.  Thank you for asking about her and for prayers offered on her behalf. 

23 comments :

  1. Oh Lindsay, this post made my night!!! I loved reading all of the updates about the kids and I have been thinking about you often and wondering how the pregnancy is going. You write so beautifully about all of your children and you seem to capture so well their essence (I mean, I only know what you write)...but you write so much more about the core of who they are vs. "so and so is good at this", "look at how tall so and so got". Which is still wonderful, but I think your descriptions are just so much more than that. Thank you for how you inspire me to pay more attention to the essence vs. the outside. I was sitting next to my 4 1/2 year olds bed tonight as she was literally bursting with joy about going to preschool tomorrow. We are planning on homeschooling, but have put her in a two morning a week preschool at our Catholic school. I want to burst with joy like that! I want to be so content in God's love for me I face each day with that much joy and love! And too, it brought to mind how in all the years of infertility and recurrent miscarriage, I never let myself think about this thing so far out as going to preschool, or other things like that. It seems like a dream come true. (Although I do tell her I wish she wouldn't grow up so fast!) LOL!! Anyway, all this to say, thank you for continuing to inspire and encourage us in the journey of motherhood. I will continue to hold your mom close to my heart. I think about cancer a lot these days as my sister is undergoing cancer treatment right now and is 6 rounds into a 12 round chemo regimen. Love in Christ, Marie

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  2. How lovely to hear how your sweet family is doing, Lindsay. Your description of your kids always encourages me to see the good in mine. Thank you for sharing. So glad to hear your mom and Lourdes are doing well. And your precious 10th baby! What a blessing! God bless you all, Marianne

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  3. So glad to have you easing back into writing! I think I speak for everyone in saying we've greatly missed your writing. You have such a precious family! May the days and years run long! As it must seem to be flying by!

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  4. So good to read these words- so encouraging!

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  5. Lindsey, thank you for writing again -- I enjoy hearing/reading your perspective on your family. They are such lovely children, and it's encouraging to hear about their interests and how much they love each other.

    God bless you all!

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  6. 27 weeks?!! No way! Love hearing your day updates. Hope to see you sometime soon :)

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  7. Lindsay, thank you for the wonderful update on your family! Your devotion and love for each member is inspiring and humbling. I can't believe how much your little ones have grown! I hope you are feeling well, and that the sickness that has plagued some of your past pregnancies hasn't touched you this time. You and your family are in my prayers.

    -Alison

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  8. I'm so happy you are back blogging!!! Brings a smile to this Grandmothers face to see the joy motherhood brings to you!!!

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  9. So glad for the post and the good news!

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  10. So thankful that your mother is doing well! The children have grown so much, thank you for the updates. God bless the newest addition! I hope you had an easier first and second trimester!

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  11. So happy to see that you are back. You give me the reminder to enjoy every minute. Even in the times I seem to be losing my patients, I think of you, your family and our faith. Thank you for sharing your wonderful family with all of us.

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  12. Hi Lindsay! I am happy to read this post and happy you are back. Your writing and reflections on life and motherhood are just beautiful. I am a first time mom and reading your posts always reminds me of the true, beautiful blessing that motherhood really is. Thank you for sharing your heart with us all. God bless you.

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  13. I love this update! I love the way you talk about your children. I am so curious to know how you manage to get anything done at all; it must be such a temptation to just sit and enjoy your kids all day long. Thanks for posting - it's so good to see you back!

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  14. I am thrilled to get an update and especially to hear that your pregnancy is going well! Praise God!

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  16. So wonderful to read your update!! Glad all is well with the pregnancy. God bless you!

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  17. So happy to hear from you! God bless you and your family!

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  18. I love reading about your beautiful family. Your words totally give me mom squad goals. Prayers for a beautiful birth and a perfect bill of health for Lourdes for many years to come.

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  19. I logged into your blog once again this evening, not expecting anything new, but still hopeful and was so VERY pleased to see your happy new post! HURRAH!! to know all is well with everyone! and that you continue to be an inspiration to me and so many others! Although you know nothing of my life, as I read your words I feel as if we are almost next door neighbors. You give me hope that whatever challenges come my way, I too can rise above them, relying on my faith in our Heavenly Father and His Beloved and most Wonderful Son, Jesus Christ! Thank you Lindsay for sharing your life with me and so many others who like me, love you!!

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  20. Yay! You're back! So glad to hear everything is going well in your home. I was having my morning quiet time and thought I'd check your page, even though I was sure there were no new posts. What a treat!

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  21. Yay! You're back! So glad to hear everything is going well in your home. I was having my morning quiet time and thought I'd check your page, even though I was sure there were no new posts. What a treat!

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