May you be rewarded in eternity for the prayers and sacrifices offered for our family especially my mother during this time.
Her scan last Tuesday did not show as we were hoping for. The tumors are still present so they will move forward with the (as they phrase it), the "Atomic Bomb" of chemos (B.E.A.K). They described it to us as bringing her to a point of death and then back. We have such high regard and respect for her doctors, but those terms sure scare a family. We all were a little weary after last week. Cancer has been such a roller coaster of emotions. You always want God's will to be done, but trying to find your mindset and footing during the ups and downs can prove to be quite the challenge.
This round of chemo is what they have been preparing us for for many months. She will be hospitalized for 4-6 weeks and then will stay in Kansas City for another 4 weeks for monitoring. She might be able to go home around the beginning of next year (She currently is receiving treatments about four hours from her home). They will rescan in March. These are the current plans, but as we have found, plans can change in a day.
She asked me for the first time to ask people to pray for her. She is really afraid for this treatment. We are almost going on a year now since her diagnosis.
My second prayer request would be that Lourdes would take a bottle. I REALLY want to be with my mom next week during chemo and specifically stay the night with her during her treatments next week. If they are what they say they are, I do not want her alone. The catch is that children are not allowed in during this time so I cannot bring Lourdes. She refuses every bottle we've tried to give her, but in order for me to stay with my mom at night, Lourdes needs to take a bottle. I have enough milk stored up from her time in the NICU so that won't be a problem. She is getting up several times at night to nurse so please pray that God will be merciful on this small, but important detail. I wish so much to be with my mom especially during the nights (We live three hours from Kansas City so I can't go back and forth.)
Thank you so much. I know so many people who are suffering from cancer and other illnesses. My heart and mind are often without words when you see the vast suffering everywhere you look.
God Bless You.