Wednesday, November 11, 2015

9 Months Old

I am thousands of pictures behind and even more blog posts in my attempts to capture how I feel about our children.  I can sure worry with the best of them.  I am not easy going when it comes to them and their lives.  The time I have with them can not compete with the love I have in my heart.  Their lives are so wonderful and have brought such joy into our hearts.  With that joy, I have felt so many daily sorrows.  Some big and so many are so small that I have never vocalized them to anyone.  Sitting with Dominic tonight before bed, I sat and listened to him tell me all about everything.  Gosh, that is so painful.  Why?  Time slipping away I am sure.

I cannot help but whisper to God, "Please let me have more children."  I love these children so much.  Their lives are so beautiful to me. 

Our Lourdes is NINE months old today.  She has her bottom two teeth and is standing everywhere.  She says a few words and loves to show us where the light is.  She came with strong velcro attached to my hip.  She is very slow to get on solids and still won't take a bottle.  Her little stomach is very sensitive and seems to react to most foods I've given her.  She still nurses like a newborn.  The girls carry her around all day so much so that I realized today that she was never on the floor.  Ever.  If she wasn't sleeping, someone was playing with her.  What a lovely life you have.

I had planned to go last week to be with my mom, but we had to take Lourdes to the ER in the middle of the night for a croup attack.  After several hours there, we headed home and I just didn't feel comfortable leaving her as she still didn't feel well.  On Friday, I left her with John for three days while I went to be with my mother.  The Thanksgiving turkey never took a bottle for three days.  I have a freezer full of milk, yet she waited for her beloved to come home.  He fed her baby food and gave her drinks all day of breastmilk out of cup.  One would think after that long she would have taken it. Nope.  I told my sisters when I returned home that she nursed her lips off.  Goof.  Anyway, I was so thankful to sit with my mother and am so grateful to John for his saintly love and heroic efforts in holding down the fort. 


  1. Your babies are so beautiful, Lindsay. What always strikes me about your photos, though, is that I can see and feel your love for your children through them.

    John is an amazing husband. I can't even imagine, cup feeding a baby for three days! He is a treasure (and so is she!).

    Still praying for your mother...

    1. Between you and me (he.he.), per the request of my mother, she told me not to write about John on my blog because he is in a category like no other. Words would never suffice. Really. He is something else to behold. He took everyone to mass by himself and the best part, he is the happiest fella you would ever meet. Ever. Anyway, thank you for praying. I am so thankful for prayers. God Bless.

  2. I hope you are given more children, too. Reading your thoughts about your little ones is so inspiring. Lourdes is gorgeous! I used to think she was going to favor Zellie, but maybe not. This series of shots makes me think that she (much like Damaris) is in a league of her own.

    My thoughts and prayers are with your Mother and family.

  3. What a beautiful baby!! She's wonderful. I love how a mother is irreplaceable, although I think your husband is in the running for sainthood.

  4. Thanks, Lindsay, for this beautiful and inspirational post. I love it that you ask the Lord for more children- how wonderful! Your family is so beautiful and the Lord has big plans for you all to trust you with your suffering. I'll continue to pray for your mother and you all during this time.

  5. I love hearing about your beautiful family! And it's beautiful to see those moments of the two of you as a couple. It seems there are few places in our society where we can really share about amazing husbands.

  6. I wish I could have seen her face when she woke up and you were there.

  7. I feel the same happy sadness at seeing them grow! I pray that God gives us both more children. You are such a wonderful mother!

  8. "I cannot help but whisper to God, "Please let me have more children." I love these children so much. Their lives are so beautiful to me. "

    This spoke to my heart today. It was exactly what I have been feeling. Thank you.

    Lourdes is beautiful.

  9. She is beautiful!! I'll be praying for you and your mom!

  10. I hope that your mother is handling this latest chemo well! I understand what she mean that sometimes words aren't enough, but I for one, love hearing stories about amazing fatherhood! I feel like great dads deserve some notice. I have a "John" as well- he is such a gift. He kept all of ours last week so that I could go out of town and be there for a friend who suddenly lost her father. My friends were amazed he could hold down the fort- I don't know if they ate pop tarts all day or not, but everyone was happy and clean when I got back! We have had a trip to the ER before for croup- it is no joke! I hope that your sweet girl is all better. I am praying for your mom, I know she can beat this!

  11. Just beautiful, Lindsay. Thank you for sharing your heart. God bless your mother and you and your whole family.

  12. Lindsay, I am expecting my long-awaited "first" baby on December 31st. (I have had 3 first trimester miscarriages in the last two years). I pray that I can love my children and teach them to love our Lord the way you do. I am so grateful that you share your life through this blog. God bless you.