Friday, January 1, 2016

She came HOME.

My love came home. Our Christmas was wonderful because she was home.  We were told she would be in the hospital until after the beginning of the year, but here she is.  Nothing much mattered to me this Christmas but her.  She will have scans in February to check the effectiveness of her treatments.

I have always had an awareness of the swiftness of time, but my sensitivity to the sand slipping through the hourglass has heightened.  This brings about an ability to push aside all trivial matters and focus on the most important, but it also brings about sadness not knowing what the coming months will bring.

I keep telling her that we are together now.  We have today and we can do today.  I don't exactly know how to navigate through these times.

We are all so thankful for her being home.  I was able to be with her for her bone marrow transplant and last chemotherapy treatment.  I thank all who prayed for Lourdes to take a bottle while I was gone.  She actually never did, but John willingly handled her so I could be with my dear mother.

Tomorrow will be her one year anniversary of being diagnosed with cancer.  Wow.  It seems like it has either been five minutes ago they told us she had cancer or that it was fifty years ago.  I'm not sure which.




11 comments :

  1. What a sweet, beautiful gift, Lindsay! So happy for your family.

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  2. I am so happy you can be with her now, I am smiling and crying for your family at the same time.

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  3. very happy to read this sweet post! happy new year!

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  4. Sharing in your joy, Lindsay! My heart just aches as I feel your love for your mother whenever you write about her. I have come to love her too! She and your family have my continued prayers!

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  5. What a perfect Christmas gift! I always say the gift of time is the best- time with someone you love. Nothing tops it.

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  7. I'm really happy for you. For you also xmas was more magical than other year.

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  8. I am SOOO happy to hear that you were all together for Christmas. Every day I pray for Mech, and pray for you all! I've been hoping all is well. My little St. Miriam's day is February 15th...I'll pray hard that she may intercede for you all and that your Mama may have good scans! <3 God bless! Sharon

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  9. Oh, Lindsay! What wonderful news! I'm so happy for your mom, your family, and especially for you. God bless you all with many continued graces.

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  10. this is a special present that new year had to you..... happy new years to yours love
    veronica

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